nervous breakdown

stress to the max now! im taking my driving exam again tomorrow and HOW IF I FAIL AGAIN IYO I DAMN PARANOID LA.

what if i bang the poles again?! or fail my three point turn? or roll down the hill and crash into the car behind me? or drive too fast and bang into my tester and break his legs! or.....bang into nurzilawati daud =D =D *grudge

iyo i really, really more than anything in the world right now want to pass my driving test tomorrow! most of my friends failed the first time but managed to pass on the 2nd and what if i fail on both times and end up on the front page of Yahoo! as the girl who tried 95 times and still never passed T_______T like the old woman from China T__________T

im so stressed that i went crazy and bought soooo much pastries and bread and started eating like a miserable pig! and i woke up this morning at the thought of driving!! i am certainly not a person who can handle failure very well and just shrug it off my shoulders thinking its peanuts.

i don't want to pay another RM 150 lah iyo why am i so kiamsiap and kiasu!

(RM 150 x 95 times = RM 14 250 NOOOOOOOOOOO!! )

how! i rather take written exams (anything but mathematically related subjects) than go for driving tomorrow! and i haven't even drove for a week or more ever since i failed (unintentionally ok dammit, UNINTENTIONALLY!! wtf) i scared i cannot remember which is the clutch or which is the accelerator and how to work the gear iyo gear 1? reverse? ALAMAKKKK

great..all these ranting is making me even more worried. time to hit the gym, i've only got until 10pm sigh 30 minutes gym what lah gym go use the time to eat even better aih aih how i wish i had superpowers to rewind time if i fail or could brainwash the testers aihhhhh genie where are you sigh ok gotta go sigh stresseddddddddd