Manchester :)

its so sexy.

Ryan Lee Guo Qing!!!! im going to talk to you on msn soon because i need some help and to see a psychologist here is like RM 1000 plus per consultation, so pleaseeee consult me for free because i am stressed out of my guts.

and im sorry to a couple of other people whom i stressed them out as well :( i was so stressed that the world told me to take it easy, and that me being stressed and complaining and depressed made like at least 3 or 4 other people stressed out and emo too. sorrrrrrry.

im still trying to cope. struggling like crazy :(

Ecstasy

does anyone still read me?

i have been doing massive shopping in London until i had problems trying to enter my own room today when i got back to Manchester.

so my reading week has come to an end, unfortunately. and i am so crazy "productive" because i brought my super heavy economics book down thinking i should and will study, but i read a total of 2 pages.

im struggling with university (seriously, now i understand why everyone say CIMP programme is shit because you don't learn so many things and therefore, i lack the foundation to whatever i am studying now).

stress balls and i am still happily shopping and eating and enjoying my holiday carefree life in London when i clearly need the reading week. so disappointing, really.

i actually called up my mum and cried because i always put myself through unnecessary stress, exam is not tomorrow and i sleep with my books, think about them when i shower and even woke up due to thinking about accounting. i don't understand shits about accounting and economics and i haven't done all my assignments online etcetc even though they aren't graded because i simply DON'T UNDERSTAND. i feel so stressed out seriously and its making me cry for 4 days in a row already. i don't know why im like this, im just generally a stressed out bitch.

(Michelle would understand this..i always get stressed to the point that everyone asks me to go consult a psychologist. and my mum always scold me for stressing myself. i never fail to cry every single damn time an exam comes up, never ever fail. and i always ring up Michelle and just cry like crazy)

okay skip this,

i had a good week anyway for reading week, good in one way and bad in another..i had great food, bought essential items and basically attended Ecstasy.oh, and spent a bomb again.

Thanks Gan! Pre- drinking is always the way to go before clubbing here. helps you feel warmer.

oh Stanley! you and your poses.....wtf

told you he's good

they had a head start of drinking first while i was taking forever to get ready (as usual) and this is what alcohol does to Stanley. he sang, he posed, whatever; you name it, he did it! hahaha

then after, it was off to Maddox.

good! my arms look thin here, but a little scary somehow..and i decided to push my hair up that night instead of having boring side-parted fringe..was kinda skeptical at first cos i used to have this really disgusting pushed-up fringe in high school and it was so ugly i think people remember me for that wtf

with Hsu Jen, everyone says that we both look exactly alike and that was their first reaction when they saw me! there was once when we were having dinner and Yusmin started to stare at the both of us and said, "omg, you both look really alike!"...something like that

do we?

(my head is huge!)

so pretty and sweet! i always tell my friend that i find her really pretty especially when she smiles! i got to stop posing this way it looks as if im gonna strangle her or something.

Gan, from Sheffield! im going to come visit you if there's an oriental party.

As written on my fb caption, i say it once again that it is not my underwear you're looking at (i know you are looking at that part don't need to deny)..i was wearing safety pants and my underwear that night was light blue..(and with a ribbon)

we're both still giving a go at it! im trying to pull off a Stanley hahaha. not too bad what right?!

so sexy that our tables came with rose petals and also chocolate smothered strawberries! with champagne and other bottles as well of course.

and, i just had to come up with that face.

Yang Sik!! i super duper love what he wore that night to obey the smart dress code. simple and nice! when are we going to do dinner again?? i'll get groceries!

left the club when it was closing, almost everyone on the table was pissed drunk due to the 151..i know, it totally kills. (i still don't forgive you Darren)

i didn't drink at all when i went to the club, just a little on the JD back then..total improvement!

walked home freezing and to a drizzle..sick of the weather here seriously.

so many times i just want to give up, give up everything here, go to London and just live my life like how i always do there. eat as i like, shop as i like, spend and treat myself to all the pretty things that the world has to offer me. if only i could, if only life could be a bed of roses for me like how it has been 18 years ago; then i wouldn't be upset about reality.

gonna be a sun, sun shiny day.

ecstasy.