so many times i just want to give up, give up everything here, go to London and just live my life like how i always do there. eat as i like, shop as i like, spend and treat myself to all the pretty things that the world has to offer me. if only i could, if only life could be a bed of roses for me like how it has been 18 years ago; then i wouldn't be upset about reality.

gonna be a sun, sun shiny day.

ecstasy.

ecstacy party tonight, you all up for itttttttt? geez i can't believe i came down all the way from Manchester just to attend this party.

Varina

There's this one thing i really cannot resist and hold myself back from.

and they are shoes..i really thought im not tempted anymore but when my friend decided to show me some flats which im actually dying to get but trying to refrain, i lost it. i am totally stunned and am already picking out 3 colours to buy.

pure heaven, this is what i call shoe heaven ahhhhhh..i like nude coloured ones but can't decide on either to choose nude or glossy black.

white one is really nice right?? but i find it a little weird looking somehow. what do you think? and im getting the metallic pink on the bottom left but in silver, have always wanted that ever since i saw it.

this colour looks quite pretty as well, doesn't it? so sweet for a girl!

or this?

*stress*

just one of those webcam days with friends, making sure i don't lose them.

how's the world today? daylight saving which means im 8 hours behind Malaysia now.

but its 3 a.m here, and im falling asleep, lectures at 10 tomorrow.

see you all, love love.

eeeyuck.

always confused all the time- back in Malaysia and even now in Manchester..i never fail to live up to my name as the blur queen.

I almost burnt down my kitchen yesterday while i attempted to steam my Lotus bun, put it in the microwave under the highest heat for 3 whole minutes and smoke started fuming out like craaaaazy and filled the whole kitchen with an extremely revolting burnt smell..then when i opened the microwave, there laid my bun, my expensive chinese lotus bun solid as rock and black as charcoal.

and also left the microwave half screwed; now its all yellow and oily and burnt on the inside..Im really lucky to not have trigger the fire alarm or the whole building is not gonna be very happy about it.

and today, i found maggots in my fridge under my compartment..SO FREAKING DISGUSTING and fat and wiggly! my flatmate, Rachel and I freaked the hell out and i swear my whole bimbotic side flashed in front of her eyes..I didn't know what the hell were those juicy white stuff were at first, until i saw their head which was this tiny yellow dot and saw their fat body enlarge. then, i screamed like how a typical bimbo would and grabbed my yellow rubber gloves, took tonnes of kitchen roll, discussed about how disgusting and scary of a sight it was with my flatmate, then screamed some more while wiping those bugger before dumping them into the bin.

I, for once, should really not be left in the kitchen..i don't belong there.